A word that not dare to say

After such a long time,

I've been trying all my best to show you how much I love you, how much I about care you,

by words, by actions.

Every thing seem just like grass in your eyes.

I do not know how to describe my feeling on you.

I seem like making a foolish promise to you and a foolish promise that I ever make.

With a promise that I hold, I hurt you, I hurt myself.

May be I just intend to use the possession of you to boost my ego or confident.

May be I just purely like your honesty that seem like doesn’t exit in the world anymore.

May be I really love you.

I do not wish to distinguish it.

As it makes me feels the pain.

You will be a person that I always love,

by past 2 years,

by now,

by future.

but, my love toward u would never let u know ever again.

When my back turns against u, it doesn’t mean I really prepare to go.

I just hide myself, and give you support when you need it.

All the best.

p/s:

Of course, this is the record I have kept in facebook. Obviously, I’ve some doubts that couldn’t be solved at that time. But, some of it have been solved already.