To my Dearest

To my Dearest:

How have you been recently? Have you taken good care of yourself? Do you often stay up late to do revision? Remember to take care of yourself. Health is the basic requirement to bring you far; is the most important component to realise your dreams.

By the way, how is your relationship with him? Don’t you spend a splendid time with him every day? How could I resist not to envious you when you find your Mr. Right to share every little thing in your life? Yet, I'm not your Mr. Right. But I would rather to witness how happy you’re than to see you live in pain!

How can I tell you that I’m not disappointed with your choice? How is that possible for me to tell you that I’m fine, but, in fact, I’m not? How could I say I was not hurt when you chosen silent to respond me as if I’m an immature man in your eyes? Still, I believe you have your own reasons. All I’m left to do is to learn to accept it.

Never! It’s never to take place between you and me! I would never hate you not even in a split-second! I shall never blame you for your choice because you’re only being honest to yourself, and chosen what is right in your own judgement! I know how you feel as all these have happened to me when I first met you. Instead, I would be happy for you as you have found your Prince Charming and wish you could live happily everyday. Furthermore, you’re happy and blessed. This is all I want to give you. The only problem is I’m not the one who gives you all these things. However, I will hate you; I will not forgive you, if you never take a relationship, seriously and honestly! Of course, I know that you’re not that kind of people! So, I never have a chance to hate you in my life!

Neither should I feel sorry for you nor should you feel bad towards me. Both of us are from two totally different planets! I should know it and acknowledge it! The sequence of your life missions is – your family, your study, your occupation and then, a relationship! But, for me, my sequence is – a relationship, my family, my study, and the last shall be my occupation! You’re rational, I’m emotional. You’re reasonable, I’m unreasonable. You’re active, I’m passive. You’re in the science field; I’m in the business world. We speak two totally different languages. In short, it is all about love!So, no one shall take the blame!

But, I’m thankful to the FATHER in heaven as I’m given a chance to meet you and fall in love on you. It is the most fascinating thing I have ever meet in my life. I dreamt of you; I missed you; I wondered how you’re everyday. In all these years, I learned to be romantic and how to swim. Of course, I’m still learning how to love a person in the right ways and to be a better man. But, you’re the one who ignited all these things and made miracles in my life!

I’m not sure whether you have enough understanding about men. Though, I know I’m unqualified to generalise all men. But, trust me; communication is the best medicine to cure all relationship problems! If love is said as the ligament that holds two bones; then communication shall be synovial fluid that reduces the friction of two bones. At least, I think so! Because not all men are capable to read the signals that a girl sends. If the one that can, be careful as well! Yet, I wish that the relationship between you and him shall be smoother than a cover of a book.

After so many things that took place, I feel that you might be happier than I could imagine, if I’m absent from your life. So often, I feel that you would feel the sense of bless, in my absence. I shall not disrupt your happy life. I shall stand an arm distance from you.

You will always have my best wishes, now and forever. I wish you would be with the man that truly loves you; with the man that treats you the way you like to be treated; I wish you’re a step closer to your dream everyday; I wish all your dreams might come true one day. I wish you would pass your test tomorrow as well.

Your sincerity,

CJ.